Project 219: Day 5: Thank God for Mirrors...who's gonna tell me that I look like CwAp! (Part 2)

Now I did learn a thing or two about my public image and how we sometimes put out a certain front of how we want to be perceived.

We never really post any bad photos of us online if we can help it right?

(It helps when you keep yourself untaggable hehe)

It's become almost like a popularity contest or for some it's almost a modeling magazine lol!

C'mon let's face it, it's kind of funny. 

I love seeing myself through other people and I have a good laugh :)

I clearly get it!!!  I understand! It's ok, we're all humans and we want to count :)

I know that one of the dangers of being a diva, you think you gotta look a certain way.

But really... I'm very versatile and carefree with my image. 

Most of the time I'm just very casual and even lazy to dress up. (although my closet will tell you otherwise with clothes exploding with unworn clothes and tags still on them.)

Just the other day I walked out in my houseclothes with my top worn inside-out. (Knowingly) Lol!

I've always been comfortable being me, very simple and still can't put proper makeup.

No pretense but yes preferably in pumps and heeled boots. 

Nonetheless down to earth! 

(Daily Dare: If no one will tell me how I look like, there's always the mirror and how I view myself that counts!)

Project 219: Day 4- Thank God for Mirrors...who's gonna tell me that I look like CwAp! Lol! (Part 1)

Just because I think I look great, it doesn't mean that I am. 

Or am I???

Well that's all in the belief system isn't it?

If Beauty is really in the eye of the beholder so then we are all beautiful in someone's eyes.

Why do I randomly bring this up?

Because I see beauty in many things. I like to think I'm a silent artist just admiring all sorts of

stuff out there. One thing I'm finding about me that's really an annoyance lately is the

attention to details. 

Sometimes I see the daily 'selfies' that are regularly posted up and I can't help but wonder

why some just loves to put so much of themselves up.

I appreciate the self-love and confidence that some of us have 

but I have to admit that I really don't think some of the photos that are posted 

does that person justice. It's just not appealing and yet, the person just puts multiple shots.

So I have to wonder and can't help but ask the question:

"If in my opinion this person looks ridiculous, then perhaps many people feel the same about me?" 

Then I laugh at myself and quickly tell myself to not care. Lol!

A few days ago I was feeling so'cwappy' physically from my ongoing insomnia 

and so it reflected in my appearance. 

I walked pass my closet mirror and voila... 

my shirt was on inside-out, my hair was a mess and I was not planning on washing my face and brushing my hair all day.

 Thought to myself...

Who cares no one will see me anyways??

I walked towards the kitchen and yelled at Jordan who happened to be home studying for mid-term exams. 

"Can you pls go get us lunch?"

Yep it was a lazy day and I finally convinced him to get us Harvey's burger trio, my favorite burger

in the burger fast food zoo. 

Love their pickles.

So we had lunch along with Alex who came home for lunch to get ready for school too. 

Nobody noticed my shirt inside-out, I left it as is to see if they'd notice and they didn't care.

They don't mind if I look like a mess because they're used to seeing their

mommy being in sweats or in her pj's many times.

(Daily Dare: Have comfort that no one really cares how you look! Be comfortable but don't be ba slob)

Project 219: Day 3-When NO ONE Really Cares - Blog anyways! (Part 3)

So if no one gives a 'crap' about you... Then who should???

So yes I fell off the darn blogging tree again and off the face of this earth.

But I was never gone!!!

I just planted the seed and hid awhile in order to grow my roots deeper and stronger. 

If I had lost followers then it's how it should be.

One of the reasons I stopped blogging was because I lost my sense of purpose.

I got carried away with the "Me" world!

I may have given a superficial image and seemed 'self-absorbed' and I agree that it's easy to fall into what I call a'Hollywood-symptom" trap. 

We all want to be stars lol!

Perhaps we've been programmed to become 'self-absorbed'! 

Heck I'm an owner of the "Ipad, iPhones" it's all about me right?

Let's face it, we all have a voice, we want to matter and to belong and Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and so on....will give us that venue.

Over the past 5 yrs and no-thanks to media and internet, I've noticed we've moved from the  'information' age to 'attention' age. 

It's become "About me, myself and I"

 It's a good thing that I'm also very self-reflective and I can be honest with myself. 

 I look deep within whenever I lose my sense of identity. 

I pull out of the picture, I reflect and I humble myself and look for my true self.

Now that's a new talent that I can be proud about :)

It's funny because lm not usually the type to care if people give a 'CwAp' 

but as a normal human being, a small part of me still does. 

However that small part is insignificant and incomparable to how I feel about myself.

I know exactly who I am and my foundation is deeply rooted in the important places.

So here I am again... blogging :)

(Today's Daily Dare: Finding strength by looking deep within and moving forward.)

Project 219: Day 2- When NO ONE Really Cares - Blog anyways! (Part 2)

But why blah blah blog again???

Blogging is my way of being creative and following through with my projects

Today, I've become more focused but most importantly

more determined. 

So blogging is my way of accomplishing my OWN Dares.

I noticed that I had more drive and direction when I had a timeline.

219 is the number of days.

Why 219?

It just is. And I will share that special number when the right time comes 

Project 219 is my reminder to Share because I Care

My biggest wish from this blog project is to see growth, to transform 

and then to inspire.

I believe in faith and hope and I'm grateful for second, third and many chances. 

I love this picture I grabbed from Pinterest cos it sets the tone for my new beginnings.

It reminds me of the lessons I learned in my garden. We all need to go through

pain for growth. And pardon my lack of eloquence right now but to put it boldly...

even 'cwap' (in fertilizer) helps speeds up growth lol!

So you can say I've been through 'cwap' lol! 

Lessons in my garden#1: In order to grow to our full potential...We need 'crap' or 'cwap' lol! 

(My Daily Dare: While looking at The Finish Line, I need to see how I will be celebrating it)

Project 219: Day 1- When NO ONE Really Cares - Blog anyways! (Part 1)

Facebook is a great liar.... it says my audience misses me and it's been a month since my last post!

 

I have not posted for almost 2 yrs but I'll take that lie anytime

just to get started with blogging again.

This time it's going to be a little different 

I call it 

PROJECT 219

consisting of 219 Days starting today!

(2/19 = February, 19)

So it's been 2 yrs since I blogged here. 

I feel refreshed after abandoning one of my passions (blogging)

and taking the time to re-create myself.

A lot has changed since I let The Dare Diva take a break.

I believe that I've managed to help her BECOME a more defined 

character who has more to share and blog about.

Some may say...

"Oh Heck NOT AGAIN!"

And the hard fact is that No ONE Really Cares...

So I say BLOG Anyways!

This is the beauty of the internet...

There's information, there's garbage and there's...

The Dare Diva. 

Lol!

to be continued...

(Daily Dare: Today I'm creating my personal GPS and envisioning the end of Day 219)

It's time to CELEBRATE LIFE!

Wonder what I've been up to?

Well that ONE thing that's most important to me is about to launch.

Hubby has been away for a while and things had to be pushed aside.
Plus the many b-day lunches and dinners has finally slowed down and I'm
just about to pop out a new and improved muffin-top lol!
 Dang it, can too much love from friends  really be this fattening?
Anyways, that should go away when I get back on my program.


My sons got me an ice-cream cake from DQ with a funny print on top and a #1 candle (but hey, it's what's inside that counts. They're quite funny boys)
So I'm loving my new age so far.... and my new hairdo or new look isn't to shabby lol! :)


But ya, I've been quite preoccupied with my projects and yes the
distractions came and guess what? .... I welcomed it with open arms!! :)
What's life without fun and entertainment as long as it's good for the soul!

So my 90- Days Challenge to a NEW ME is here and I'm just about ready to burst
with excitement but first I have to prepare for the ambiance and put on a heck of a party!
 

I love parties and I'm a firm believer that 'LIFE should be CELEBRATED' every chance we get!
I found early in life that I love to decorate parties ever since I can remember. This is due to my artsy-fartsy nature lol! I love to CREATE!


As part of my going backwards in order to go forward in my Journey to Becoming... "MASTER of ONE"...
I discovered once again one of my many passions by fluke!!!
EVENT PLANNING!

And it was a wonderful fluke! (Just like my hair color was a fluke but loving it now!)

For some of my friends, they must be saying...

"Lol! That's not new to us Dare Diva!"

It's true that I've always been into event planning or party decors since I can remember.
It's just recently that it suddenly fell back on my lap.

I just know that it's more of a hobby and it's not my FIRST LOVE!
So going into partnership with a dear friend was the way to go.

 www.celebrationsgarden.com

As a matter of fact, the best way to have my projects go forward is to have partners
manage them for me or with me.
Anyhooo... what better way to launch every darn great project than with a bang!
LEt's go at em! You can now preview ONE of my NEW Project @ www.CelebrationsGarden.com

Now to prepare for my Garden Party!

End of 'Fortifying ONE!'

So I've got another 'year' tucked under my belt!
 (more like an extra inch to my muffintop hahaha!!!)

Last year I told myself I would focus on just ONE thing
as I turn 41.
My genius of a niece (won't name names cos I have many but she knows who she is)
suggested that I theme my year and call it the
" FORTIFYING ONE" which rhymes with Forty-ONE (like i said, genius!)



Knowing that I have ADD and all, she gave me that DARE!
Well, the Dare Diva would never pass on such an amazing DARE!
And I did that ONE thing and it made all the DIFFERENCE!

I had never been so FOCUSED in all my life. Yes I fell off the wagon
now and then but because I took that DARE, I kept my promise
and now I'm on the path to 'becoming' me!


Today marks the day when I can reflect on that ONE thing.

IF I forget to do any of the other projects or never fulfill any of the other
goals in my life... I can DIE knowing I've done that ONE IMPORTANT thing!

Anyways, I will share that ONE thing another day, another blog.

But yes...
It's time to work on "FORTIFYING TWO"