Project 219: Day163- This is the worst blog year ever!

Its starting to feel like a chore to blog partly because I'm so darn lost lately!

Too many brain cells are just crossing wires that I'm starting to think

I'm going insane!

However there's hope in the horizon!

Just like killing my garden due to neglect and lack of preparation this year

the same goes for my blog! 

However I took care of the matter and I'm healing my garden again!

I am learning or re-learning a lesson in time or self-management. It's not like I didn't know how

to do it.... It's a lack of motivation.

So the questions in my mind for the last month was: 

"how am I suppose to motivate others if I myself cannot be motivated lately?" 

Duh!!

The pondering went on and on and I tried to dig into that left-brain memory storage to see if I can retrieve a file of data that I used to receive from reading all the inspirational/self-help gurus. 

Nothing special popped up except for the fact that I knew for myself that motivation needs motion!

I just had to move it!

I finally picked up the slack and attacked the weeds in my garden. Lol!

So here's today's dilemma...

When opportunities come along and sometimes they come in bundles looking something like a buffet of sushi or favorite delicious seafood... It's hard to decide what to eat. It's easy to say 'eat them all!'

Somehow nature has a way of saying: "don't or you'll pay for it!"

So yup it's hard to make choices that will lead you to that destination when the opportunities all 

appear to be the same at times. 

I'm closing to the end of my project219 and I'm faced with a decision.

So what to do in this case?

Prayer is the first and always my número uno solution

However, it's not always answered quickly or directly.

Many times the big guy wants you to keep looking for the answers. 

But you'll always 'feel' it when it's right! 

Key is to look for it.

Today is that day where Im again standing in front of my crossroads.

What else is new :)

Project 219: Day137 - My brain is going to burst if I don't blog (June Recap)

Omg...

What a crazy month it's been!

I need a blog break and yes it's already Day 137 in my Project219!!!

The time is ticking!!!

First let's talk about my birthday.... 

I felt shortchanged this year and that's because my birthday has been sidetracked by my busy-ness in studying this summer. My brain is not quite accustomed to retaining infos lately.

It's been years since I've been in a classroom. It's like a recurring nightmare about cramming and failing! Thank goodness you wake up from nightmares and still have that 50/50 chance of passing an exam. 

To make a long story short, my muscles in the brain has had more exercise than any muscle in my body for the past month. I haven't been to the gym and I can count in one hand how often I've been in a month. It's ridiculous!!!

So to add damage to it... My bday lunches or dinners have been postponed with friends but it's ok 

I had a great bday dinner with a group of friends the night before and then with family on my bday.

Can't really complain.

Today I just wanted to release my frustrations here and wish for this week to end because it means a few weeks break from my summer program and then I can comeback to blogging!

But it's not all that bad, I'm learning a ton of things that I thought I already knew about. It just shows that there's always something new to learn. It's exciting but exhausting because it's an intensive course. I can't complain... It's the journey that I chose to take in order to become closer to what I want to become. 

A little sacrifice of my time and an investment for my future happiness in my chosen profession :)