Project 219: Day 62-70 - I don't always appreciate my memory!

Important note to myself: Avoid Stress at all cost!!!

Stress is a choice!

So to recap this past few days:

It's too personal to mention here but for my own reference lets just say it's

been a lot of pain and setbacks. 

Pain due to physiotherapy which was suppose to help but I immediately stopped and I feel much better today. Gotta find another alternative and I'm glad that I'm able to get input from friends and the internet.

One thing really leads to another and I almost fell into a depression due to the frustration and more lack of sleep. Couldn't even tie up my hair for Zumba class and now my range of motion for my shoulder is less that when I started.

What an awful time.

I've learned a lot about myself this past week and how I've lost a bit of momentum in my journey due to looking backwards. It was very boldly taught to me this past Sunday during all the messages at church and even my own lesson that I taught. I have to really monitor my stress triggers and why I'm not moving forward as I should.

One thing to keep in mind from now on is to never look backwards. 

Not something I didn't already know!!

It's just that at times we forget because we look for distractions to calm the pain or whatever stress we are going through. One thing I've learned is that the adversary also uses our 'memory' as a tool to weaken us through past desires. So we look back and remember those things that give us unworthy pleasures. Eg. Excessive Shopping or the comforting feel of a Nutella on bread as a mid-afternoon snack lol!

So I'm  repeating some of my past mistakes and I'm glad I caught this before I self-destruct.

 And how do I get to this point? Well temptations come easily when we are weak physically and our guards are down. This is from the physical pain then lack of sleep and over fatigue. It's a chain reaction and so is the consequences. So ya I've been shopping but it's all good now. I caught myself in time and I'm grateful that I am guided through divine interventions :)

Unfortunately some things are revisited over and over again until we learn the lesson well. 

Daily Dare:  "Avoidance is more powerful than resistance"

Project 219: Day 60-61: April Showers bring May flowers- (planning)

Saturday was the usual- 

Zumba and workout in the morning. 

Was locked out of the building and had to go back home for keys to the gym.

Joe was busy making the Ferrero Rocher Cheesecake for Easter

Spent time with the sick baby in the afternoon

And finished the day with a wonderful Easter concert at church.

It was so beautiful and I was captivated with the spiritual blessings of talented singers all night.

Sunday we went to attend the Kirkland ward because it was close to my sis-in-law's home

and the Sunday service was full of singing and it felt like a continued service from the Easter concert except less powerful vocally. The Easter concert was powerful indeed and it lingers.

We had a big Easter brunch at my Inlaws and family. 

I need to plan my next week's exercise and diet!

It was nice and we had played some fun board games. 

Project 219: Day 59 -April Showers bring May flowers- (planning)

Good Friday

Today was a Great Friday 

Joe took the day off work and we had a nice day together. 

I still managed to inject 2hrs of gym time for me in the morning while he babysat

ESA for a little bit. 

After lunch we went out to watch Captain America 2 and experienced the VIP Cineplex Scotia Theater!

That was a blast :)

It was comfortable, private and had all the amplified digital sound effects and yes the stuff hubby cares about lol!

But for me, I like the fact that you really felt like a VIP with big comfy seats that has a pull out table

Lots of leg room, and leather chairs that recline. 

The moment you walk into the theater it already has the ambiance of a VIP.

A nice lobby and a resto/lounge. 

The bathrooms were pretty nice as well, it was an individual room with lots of space not stalls

Then we tried out some calamari and sandwiches which was pretty good

And we followed it with a little shopping at DiX30 Shopping complex and walked into

a few stores. I did pretty good and not buy a single thing :)

And ended up at the Broadway Cheesecake and had hot chocolates and cheesecake but didn't like the toblerone cheesecake as much

So NOPE the 2hr workout in the morning wasn't enough!!!

And I forgot I ate so much popcorn too!!

Project 219: Day 58 - April Showers bring May flowers- (planning)

True-North Thursday!

Finding the cure starts with the true source of my pain.

Today I finally had my physiotherapy appointment.

It's both relieving and disappointing

I felt relieved that I was on the road to recovery again and just being there was 

an important step. I was too stubborn to even make the appointment because I

knew I could heal myself. 

I realized that wisdom comes from being teachable, humble and so I had no choice but 

to listen to my body and get additional help.

What disappoints me is that each individual with their profession often contradicts

each other. It just confuses me even more. 

I kind of have my own theory of how my injury started and the pain probably escalated from

the fall in the snow but the physio based her assessment on scientific facts and in my opinion ...

does not really care about my theory of how the pain started.

I think I would know my own body better and so now on I'm gonna 

continue doing some of my own homework and researching an alternative way to heal

myself on top of the physio treatment.

Let's start by moving!

I will continue to exercise ... so yes 1.5 hrs at the gym today was fine!

Plus... I would be better off as I find ways to prevent this tendonits from happening again.

 True source comes from honesty and I am 100% certain that it all starts in my diet and 

I'm sure having body inflammation has a lot to do with it. Let's start there :)

Project 219: Day 57 -April Showers bring May flowers- (planning)

Wacky Wednesday 

What a crazy day!

Didnt sleep well for 2 days and probably got in4hrs for the 2 nights.

I finally fell asleep an hour before teaching Zumba class and was 5 mins  late. But it wasn't too bad, students are often late coming into class. It was a great class.

Then I had lunch with hubby and the submarine sandwich was pretty bland and super greasy. I felt pretty gross and couldn't wait to workout and burn whatever I ate.

So at night I has another Zumba class to teach and it was great because I added weights to my class. 

Now what i really want to do is work on trimming my waste down to a size 26 

Is this even possible considering my bone structure?? Not sure but I could at least try. I may not reach that size but a 28 would still be super! Imagine that :)

So ya I'm gonna start incorporating what i call my wacky workouts to reach this goal. 

Project 219: Day 56 - April Showers bring May flowers- (planning)

Terrific Tuesday 

This morning as tired as I was from lack of sleep I managed to go to the gym for 9:30am

The Zumba this morning was extremely energetic that I completely forgot how tired I was. The music was pumpin and not a break in between. I broke out a sweat within minutes. It was awesome!

It's what you'd expect from a man who is energetic and Cuban dancer/instructor 

Then I was still able to put in half an hour of weight training and abs workout.

Having done all that exercise, my mindset was programmed to eat well, lots of vegetables and tilapia fish for lunch probably under 600 calories

and had my shake for supper. 

But I believe I may have burned all my calories and definitely some fat after having to teach Zumba in the evening on top of my early morning workout!

I should be ready for the pink sands in Bermuda in a month :)

So ya, we're booked to go on the NCL Breakaway next month!

My goal is to look Fit and Fab by then. Now if I could just get my injured shoulder back to normal again.

Project 219: Day 55- April Showers bring May flowers- (planning)

Oh how I miss my work-outs at the gym!!!

And just to think how I used to hate working out!

This is the kind of pain that I appreciate and love...

Pain from working out!

So now my journey really starts here.

It's time to get serious and get in shape for the summer.

After 2 mths away from the gym and irregular Zumba classes 

I had gained what I would normally gain on a 2 week cruise to the Caribbeans.

That's 10 lbs!

That's from lack of sleep and a little more sweets than usual plus the lack of exercise so

yes that's a deadly recipe for weight gain!

What I've learned from these past few weeks is priceless.

 I've done much of the thinking and making sure this is truly what I want to do

and thanks to my recent physical injury I was able to pause and ponder on the path I am

planning on taking with this project 219.

At first it was a just an inspiration to blog again and then it became a 

nagging feeling that I just couldn't shake off and so I did no matter how uncomfortable

it felt to start again. Never really knew what to write about... just took it day by day

and tried to be consistent.

It had become a little exercise to see if I can still enjoy the writing

And my desires became my strength in pursuing this course.  

I decided that if I want to get somewhere, it's wise to just move along even if I'm not quite sure how to proceed. At some point I knew I'd figure it out but I wasn't gonna sit on my butt and wait for the light to come on and 'pooof' miraculously give me crystal clear directions.

Now I'm 110% sure this is my path without a doubt and I'm excited and scared at the same time but God would never tell me to do something I couldn't handle. 

Project 219: Day 53-54 - Snow is gone for good!

It was a beautiful weekend

Friday I went back to the gym for the first time and Saturday was back to regular

Zumba and strength training and the pain was welcomed.

And the rest of the day was spent grocery shopping at the Asian grocery store and

it was packed. The line was very long and Im glad I had my brother to help me

while Joe stayed home for the roof repairs.

It was a long day and I was glad to stay home and rest at night.

Sunday was church service as usual and an extra meeting afterwards.

So from 12-pm to 4pm and I was exhausted because I hardly slept the night before.

Not a great idea to skip on the anti-inflammatory pills.

The pills help with the discomfort.

I'd like to do this naturally without drugs but right now I need it to help me sleep as

much as I can.

Project219:Day 48-52 Pain pain go away!

Bad week!

But not a complete waste. I was able to gain another contract for a second day for

 Zumba at the same company.  And I believe I will be able to offer another class 

of an existing group as well.

Things are going as planned however my shoulder pain is just not going away 

as fast as I would like it to.

Ive been diagnosed with tendonits on my shoulders and today (Friday) I must've 

twisted the wrong way while sleeping and woke up with excruciating pain.

How could this little thing give me so much pain!

So this morning I'm looking for an osteopath and a physiotherapist and I think I will

add a massage therapist all at once.

I'm done with this pain!!

It's keeping me from being effective!

Project 219: Day 46-47: General Conference. A Spiritual Weekend!

I wrote a lot of my thoughts about this weekend in my personal journal.

I have many favorite messages but that's a whole book.

I love this conference because I felt a bit more involved. 

Of all the beautiful words or qoutes that I heard ... This stuck out because I love rainbows!!

Project 219: Day 45 - Next time I prefer to just take an apple a day!

Almost late for the appointment at the hospital. I wanted to keep sleeping until hubby

with his hyper tone unpleasantky asking me what tine my appointment was.

I am definitely not a morning person and wanted to just miss my appointment but I has no choice.

I got up and brushed my teeth and hair and left in a flash. 

Late of course.... but hey I made it.

So I got in right away and was surprisingly seen immediately. 

It was quick and a little disappointing because I don't think

he made a proper assessment. He asked me where my pains were

made me lift my arms and move them a certain way then tells me that I had tendonits.

I had hoped that I would get an MRI so that they will know for sure but instead

I have to see a physiotherapist and I'm not exactly happy about it because

I've seen one before and felt it wasn't working.

So anyways that was the highlight of my day.

 But Im glad that I can continue taking my meds because it helps.

I hate meds though and now I'm gearing more towards prevention just so

I don't have to go through this and the drugs.

I guess the apples a day will need to be implemented in order to keep the doctors away. 

Project 219: Day 44 - the Nutella craving!

It's official!!!

Lack of sleep and cheesecake will make you fat!!!

Duh!!!

But really...

Cheesecake has never affected me before like it does now. It's only because I haven't slept well in weeks and yes it's true that when we don't get a good amount of sleep our brain get confused

and the signals goes whack and we think we are hungry when in fact we are tired!

Oh the cheesecakes my hubby makes is sinfully delicious.

It's unreal and I'm a big cheesecake fan and quite picky too.

So yes I've been gaining weight and I've been telling myself that I would go back this week 

But it hasn't happened as yet.

Hubby being sick the past few days made me lazy and I took advantage of sleep.

So not having gone back to the gym, lack of sleep and cheesecake is the new recipe for fat!

Plus today was an extra awful day!

I just craved Nutella all day and I totally indulged myself and had

a few servings throughout the day.

I suppose because I'm a bit anxious about a few things like my doctor appointment 

tomorrow. I don't feel like going but I have to.

So ok I've had one pretty bad day, it's allowed!

Tomorrow is going to be better :)

Project 219: Day 43 - That's because Asian women age better!!!

Some random silly thoughts and maybe someone out there can relate :)

So I was again faced with the questions:

Do you have children???

I hate having to answer that because one question leads to another and 

before I know it I end up spilling the beans.

Nope....I'm not ashamed to say that I'm a young grandma... I've accepted it and gotten used to it.

Truthfully I just worry about making enemies lol!

It's been done before where I'm with a group of gym buddies and 

things were going chummy-chummy until personal questions arise like

children and how old they are. 

(Now I know that's the trick in determining someone's age lol!)

I still try avoiding it as much as possible because of petty women dramas 

Let's face it, 'some' of us women are competitive to some degree especially 

when we get closer to the midlife age hehe.

So because I'm Asian I always get the: "oh it's because she's Asian, they just age better!"

I agree but .... what happens when you're amongst Asians and you come across women

who are younger than you but thinks you're at least 10yrs younger than them?

What do you say then???

It's happened to me so many times and it's a fact that being Asian might be true but..but... but .. Lol!

What am I rambling about anyways??? (must be needing attention lol!)

Who cares if you're 10 yrs younger looking than you are? 

Heck it's not good enough anyways... LOL!!

The funniest part is the hubby who rubs it in by asking: 'how old do you think we are?'

and then brags how we are grandparents lol!

I think it's hilarious but I truly hate it when he does that. < Arggggh>

I just want to run when he does it in front of me.

I suppose I just hate telling my real age cos it's like revealing that you're getting old! 

Denial...Hahaha!

The worst part is when you run the risk of suddenly becoming the bad guy and getting ignored.

Oh well... Yesterday it happened again! 

One lady whispers in the other's ear and yet I can hear her clearly:

 "that's because she's Asian"

Lol... why the whisper???

It's nothing new!

(Daily Dare: Laugh often, it's cheaper than an anti-aging cream)

Project 219: Day 42 - April Fooled Me!

The only April fool we've been having is the slow transition to Spring 

And instead of feeling vibrantly awake to meet a fresh springy day - I'm sleeping!

April Fools on me!

 I'm suddenly wanting to sleep all day everyday

I lost so much sleep in the past month or so that it's almost as if my body

is playing an April fool's trick on me.

First I almost forgot to go and teach Zumba because whenever I would nap for just a tiny bit, I'm completely lost with the days. 

Not sure if its morning or night.

Thank goodness for the tv show that's on in the background because it gives me an indication of what time it is.

But I've never felt happier about my sleep. 

In finally becoming the Sleeping Beauty that I once used to be lol!

Now if I could just get my youth and beauty back, that would be a dream lol!

Haha... That's another joke of course to think I could ever take back time  but a girl 

can still dream right?